LOW POINT Although I was doing everything conceivable to be kind and loving, I was constantly being punished for being what my parents considered, a bad or a naughty kid
HIGH POINT Discovering that the punishment I received had nothing to do with me (who I was, or how I was behaving). My parents were attacking rejected aspects of their own personalities (Shadow) that were being mirrored by me. Every parent does this and every child suffers some degree of harm as a result.
LOW POINT Feeling desperately isolated and alone at various points in my life
HIGH POINT Acknowledging the role that I have played in keeping people at an emotionally-safe distance so that they couldn’t hurt me. Dissolving all the shame I have been carrying so that I could no longer be hurt by any other person. Allowing connection and love to flow, and tapping into an abundance of love
LOW POINT Coming really, really close to giving up on the fight for shared custody of my daughter because the protracted court battle was causing her so much harm
HIGH POINT Being assigned a wise and experienced judge who immediately identified a harmful pattern of deception and control. In contrast to the judges who had been assigned previously (they had little experience with Family Law), Justice M. settled a two year court case in minutes. I continued to play an important role in my daughter's life, and she was given the opportunity to receive love and support from both of her parents.
LOW POINT Spending twenty years in couples’ counseling, yet feeling powerless to prevent one romantic relationship after another from disintegrating, in spite of my total commitment to the creation of a healthy relationship
HIGH POINT Learning that although the psychologists, counselors, coaches and teachers I was working with exuded confidence, they could only lead me as far down a healing path as they themselves had traveled. Most had at least as much healing left to do as I, if not more. Attending a retreat where the teachers were totally committed to their own healing journey and where the approach was so effective that I made as much progress in a single week as I’d made in the two preceding decades. (I went on to become one of these teachers)
LOW POINT Struggling to sleep through the night or to get myself out of bed during those times when I was feeling the most depressed and isolated
HIGH POINT Learning how to change the way that I’m feeling by re-patterning my thoughts and beliefs. Connecting to myself so deeply that I no longer depend on someone outside of me for feelings of acceptance, connection and love-worthiness. Bidding farewell to protracted loneliness and depression.
LOW POINT Acknowledging my addiction to 'romantic' partnership (co-dependence addiction) and my uncontrollable use of sugary treats for emotional soothing
HIGH POINT Liberating myself of my addictions and helping many of my clients gain freedom from their own addictions, compulsive behavioural patterns, and most significantly, their compulsive need to manage and to control.
LOW POINT Recognising the anxiety in my own voice
HIGH POINT Healing that anxiety and replacing it with self-acceptance and love.
LOW POINT Feeling unworthy of payment from my clients
HIGH POINT Healing my relationship with money and becoming comfortable with the value of my work.
LOW POINT Living with the fear that I would never get to experience unconditional loving from a romantic partner
HIGH POINT Meeting a woman of my dreams and experiencing 'Conscious' relationship with her
LOW POINT Receiving the news that she had stage-4 cancer just as I was making plans to relocate so that we could reside closer to one another
HIGH POINT Relocating anyway. Staying 'in the Present' while simultaneously doing everything conceivable to prolong her life, AND remaining relatively unattached to the outcome. Savoring each and every beautiful moment together and rapidly releasing my emotional attachment to the less beautiful moments.